this is how I feel right now

So I was happy as can be today,planning to draw and make anything I could put my mind to. I got on my computer ready to draw and one of my brothers tell me to take out the trash. Mind you,I haven't even shown my presence to the household. I could have been asleep. But that's not the main thing that makes me mad. The thing that makes me mad is when I got out of my room I told idgit to take of his shoes,and like always he ignores me so I say it again and again and he still doesn't listen. I start yelling and then Hoe-bear catches me yelling at him and he starts yelling at me saying "You're not in charge" or "You're always telling people what to do" Now this is what makes me mad. The only thing I do that's "bossy" is to tell idgit to take off his shoes. I tell him to do it because (a)he's supposed to anyway and (b) the last time he didn't I didn't get to see my mom for a week or two. I couldn't even go into the house. Also,everyone bosses me around asking me to do things for them telling me to do my chore,when they don't even do theirs half the time.--wow someone just told me to do something while I'm ranting. And,the second thing is if I even complain once everyone gets mad at me. When we were playing just dance 3 idgit likes to pick the same song whenever it's his turn to pick a song. So I started complaining and didn't dance at all. So everyone kept getting mad at me and I just ugh. I can't take int anymore. I'm dead inside. I want everything to be done. I don't wanna live in this life anymore. I'm fricking done. I just wanna die right now. I'm done I'm done I'm done I just wanna scream UGH I wanna cry now screw this crap man two of my most hated emotions in one just no